Am I Certified Ho Now?

After a year and a half of sexploring, my "ho phase" is complete but the escapades continue...

“The sexploring isn’t over by any means but it will be more intentional and meaningful now that I know the ropes.”

A year and a half ago I wrote this:

If "Everyone Has A Ho Phase" I Am A Late Bloomer

Then, a month ago, I deleted Grindr and Scruff. I told Dan that I feel like my “ho phase” is over. I wanted to experience and enjoy sex in a way that I should have discovered as a young adult and enjoyed throughout my life. Religious stigma and cultish ex-gay ideology kept me from that, and I lived celibately for 24 years.

Today, this part of my development has been re-engaged in very fun and interesting ways.

However, before I ever let Dan arrange that birthday surprise (a naked massage by someone else :)) on my 55th birthday, I gave him a list of fears that kept me from even considering being “that kind of gay.” Some of those fears did manifest and became true. At the same time, I discovered beautiful aspects of sex and sexuality I didn’t even know were possible.

More importantly…