The Story Behind My #FuckYeah Pendant

A consistent reminder that I want to thrive, not simply survive.

Oct 25, 2025

I like the reminder that this is a healthy self-affirmation and not simply decoration.

This Silver Pendant Tells A Story of Resilience

I have worn this pendant almost daily for around 12 years. An actor/model friend in Los Angeles started getting healthier, and I found him inspiring. He and a few other healthy living type guys became my muses for losing weight. And I lost close to 85 lbs. When I hit that goal, I told my actor friend, and he helped me connect with an artisan who works with pure silver to stamp #fuckyeah into a pendant. It was my favorite hashtag he would use online. I got that for myself as a reward for all the hard work in losing weight, because #fuckyeah I saw, I did, I accomplished, and I won!

And then…

Fast forward a few years, and I had gained all of that plus five pounds (90 lbs). It was from coming out and the relational stress that caused, having to rebuild a career from scratch, and entering into a whole new community and relationships with unresolved fears and blah blah blah.

Today, I have lost 55 lbs and have kept it off. It’s a plateau, though, because I definitely need to lose more. For me it is truly unhealthy to be this overweight. I am not fat-shaming anyone. I know this for myself.

When I gained all that weight back, I didn’t wear the pendant as much because I was ashamed that I had let myself down…again.

But eventually, my true self started emerging, and as that happened, the weight started coming off again.

With the help of Wegovy, lol.

Reclaiming My Daily Symbol of Strength

But I did start wearing this pendant again almost daily as I began this journey to lose this weight once and for all.

#fuckyeah I can lose this weight to get healthier and keep it off.
#fuckyeah I can face interpersonal challenges at work and home with wisdom, grace and strength.
#fuckyeah I can heal and fully integrate my masculine, feminine, and higher self.
#fuckyeah I have always been a survivor and will never stop seeking to thrive instead of settling for anything less.

The pure silver pendant wasn’t cheap (to me), but it is on a cheapish chain with a really cheap ring to hang it on the chain. Someday I may get a really good chain and a proper pendant attachment for it. But for now, I like the reminder that this is a healthy self-affirmation and not really for decoration.

If other people see and understand the pendant, that’s cool but not the goal. It’s close to my heart (literally and symbolically), and for me that is what matters.